| now im set free and i can see right through you... |
[Jul. 6th, 2006|12:10 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | basement | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Bleeding Through- Saviour, Saint Salvation | ] |
wow its been forever. im still alive i swear.
p.s im not entirely sober, so my thoughts are all phylosophical, though they may not seem like it.
ive come to one major conclusion in life that will never change: people suck. you cant trust any one no matter how close you are with them.
now, im not speaking entirely from experience, this is all generalised and not directed towards anyone. just observations i have made through experience and just plain observation of other peoples relationships with their aquaintences.
everyone lies. you, me, youre best friend, your parents. theres nothing you can do about it...it just happnes. its natural. sometimes its for your own good, other times its so the other person can get/do what they want. its not usually meant to hurt anyone, and its not always meant to happen as it does. the point is, it does, and its always going to. i used to be a very truting person. i would trust and believe someone withing minutes of meeting them. wow was that excessivly stupid of me. over the past month or so ive come to realize, through experience, that everyone lies to you. your mom, your best friend, people you barely know. everyone. its the way of life, and its not a bad thing (a lot of the time) basically you haev to live for you. do what YOU want, not what other people want...because chances are people arent gonna make a HUGE effort to please you. theyre all in it for themselves. but thats ok...because you only live once, and youre only young once. dont restrict yourself just because you feel bad for not doing something else whether it be prior commitment, or otherwise. becuase in life people are gonna screw you over, thats just a given. you have to not let that get you down...move on....do stuff for yourself....fulfill your wants and needs (yes it sounds stupid...but really think about it) who cares if someone gets mad at you for changing your mind on plans youve made...who cares if you dotn wanna do something youve already committed to. people change their minds, you cant help that. make the best of it. make the best of ebvey situation ( i know....such positivity coming from such a negative person :p ) who cares what people think of you...who cares if someone is mad because of a descision youve made. you cant please everyone. as long as you yourself is happy doing what youre doing thats all that matters. youre living YOUR life...not someone elses. think about other peopel and consider them in your descision making, but dont let them make the descision for you and dont let them define who you are physically and emotionally. take charge. you cant coutn on anyone all the time. every single person you know has lied to you atleast once whether it be about something big or somethng small. every single person you know has or will break previously made plans with you, but so what...shit happens. every single person you know most likely cares about somone else more then they care about you, think about it....you'll eventually see its true. every single person you know will leave you at one point or another whether it be from death, events that happen, words that are said (or arent said), or some other meaningless yet relavent reason. which brings me to the quote from an As I Lay Dying song: How Quickly I Forget That This Is Meaningless.
many many many things in life are so meaningless...yet at the time they mean the world to us. we just refuse to open our eyes and actually SEE. we dotn see what others see. we restrict ourselves. but a lot of people, conversations, events, etc are completely meaningless in our lives....yet at the time, or for a long time seem to mean a lot to us. it could make us happy in the moment only to wake up and realize that it was pointless... the words that were exhanged, the people met, the sights seen. pointless. because people dont care as much as you think they do. they appear to care, but thoight their actions or words, the subtlties come out and you realise that really...theyre just telling you what you want to hear...theyre not REALLY listening to you. theyre not REALLY understanding you. they just what it to seem like they are...whether theyr ealise it or not. there may be one...MAYYYYYYBE two people in your whole life who will truly care about wat you say. what you do. and who truly care about how youa re feeling. who will truly do everything int heir power to make it better. maybe youll lose that person early on...maybe you wont meet them till later on in life...mayeb youll have known them forever....nevertheless.
basically everyone lies. everyone cheats. everyone pretends to be someone their not. maybe not for their entire life...it could only be a minute, the point is....trust no one and live for you and no one else. all you can do is apologise once and move on. care about others but make descisions based on you. do what you want, not what other people want you to do.
you define your life and who you are. though its near impossible, attempt to not fuck it up more then you already have (this part mostly referring to me....and maybe you if you actually undersant or bothered to read the millions of lines above)
so that was my semi drunken rant...i dotn know if it makes sense. i dont care. the end |
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| soo its been awhile |
[Apr. 27th, 2006|03:56 pm] |
no im not dead...i was just overwhelmed with school...but theres only one day left after today, then im doneeee forever. its kind of sad really..im gonna miss people. im so bored..im at school now...waiting for announcing to start....15 more minutes. then tomorrow i have my one and only exam, then its SUMMER!! wow this year flew by. soo many good times.
anyways so this weekend is melly's b-day at the bier market. should be good. im looking forward to it, and seing people i havent sen for a while. i dunno what im doing tomorrow though..hopefully something. oh well. ugh so theres SO much information i have to study tonight..soo not looking forward to that.
i feel like going up north...like to muskoka..SOOOOO badly. i love it up there, especially in the summer. its my favourite place in the entire world. *nods*
anyways im done babbling..
later |
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| fuck you |
[Apr. 9th, 2006|02:43 am] |
if you are of the male species: fuck you. i hate you all. you are judgemental and refuse to see things. yes, im drunk and wont mke sense. but im fuciing bitter. all the good guys are taken and everyone else is mean, insane, or excessively judgemental. to all of you: fuck you all, especially the latter. im linely as hell and i cant find a decent guy for the fuckijng life of me. and NO im not desperate, i wnt go out with just anyone, but its looking like i wont fin ANYONE who is worthi it. if you can get the approval fo my friends then congadu-fucking-lations, you win. but none of you will go to that extent for me so screw you. yes im bitter and pissed off. i hate you all. if you disagree then i dare you to prove me wrong., fine me a sane, nice gy who ACTUALLY wants to spend time with me, then i will change my opinions but untl then, *sticks up mufddle finger*
good fuckign night
*passes out* |
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| weekend |
[Apr. 3rd, 2006|09:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | basement | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Fear Factory- Linchpin | ] |
soooo last weekend was an adventure and a half that started off really..boring. friday i didnt do anything becuase everyone was busy. so i went for a late night walk. which i love. twas awesome and it was SO nice out....and then it srarted raining the second i got home haha. saturday me chrissy steve tin and phil were going to go to peterborough (we went) but tin was 2 hours late...didnt pick chrissy and i up till like 5:45pm. soooo we drove there....paied WAY too much for gas lol annnd got lost after we left the LCBO. partially caities fault...hahahaha good times. i started drinking the second we got in the door, and was drunk shortly after. i drank more then half my 26 of bacardi coconut. well..i brought 2 water bottles of that mixed with orange juice to the party. so yeah we all got ready, guys were being guys and they were playing on simons drums and guitars in the basement. we eventually left and went to the party. it was overly small, but entertaining nonetheless. then we walked to the junction. caitie said it was a 2 min walk and we wouldnt need our hooides..i was in a tank top. it was NOT a 2 min walk..more like 10. we hung out in line for the junction for awhile and realised it wasnt moving...we then saw chrissys brother. by this time i had consumed all my alcohol and was beginning to love everyone. sooo we decided to go to Vibe. it was SO fun. dancing, drinking, people took off their clothes in some box ont eh stage. then i danced with this guy, i think his name was james. he was cute. and nice. and i made out with him. he kept me warm outside of the club when we were waiting for the taxi. he was gonna come back to caities to hang out, but there wasnt any room in the cab, which made me a little sad. i gave him my number as i was walkign to the cab..so i dunno if he got it. and i forgot to say goodbye...sooo i dont think hes gonna call lol. damn. ah well. anyways we had THE BEST cab driver EVER. jim. i dotn even remember what we all talked about but he was awesome. i told him (in my drunken state) that he should move to toronto to be my personal taxi driver because he was awesome lol then we got to caities and we made 3 cheese kraft dinner. SO good, especially when drunk. i was sleeping in petes room because he went home for the weekend. his room is SO gross. chrissy and i hung out in there talking while the guys continued to play the instruments...and caitie and phil were 'sleeping' lol. then everyone went to bed. tin slept beside me but he snored so after 2 hours i went downstairs and slept on the couch...i got like 4 hours of sleep...i was woken by a bed creaking upstairs. it was about that time that i listened to my mp3 player...very loud haha. then we all woke up, watched Domino, ate more kraft dinner, tin began puking a lot. then we went to the park across the street. the guys played basketball, caitie chrissy and i wandered around...apparently my cousins street is rigth across the park from caities house. so we went there in an attempt to find their house...no luck lol. then tin threw up more, i was alte for work so i called in with some excuse, then we went to subway, came back, packed, tin threw up mroe and we left. we got lost leaving lol and we had to pull over so tin could throw up more...phil drove the rest of the way home. my mom called and was pissed because i missed work, and didnt call her the entire weekend so she didnt know if i was alive or not. all in all, twas an awesome weekened haha yet im still hopign that guy calls. doubt it though. :( ah well.
so today sucked as usual. school. you know. oh well, 4 more weeks then im done forever. anywayssss yeah i dunno. jacqui and i are goign to get our hair cut tonight at 10pm. im going for something differnt. im scared lol i hope i like it.
korn and mudvayne tomorrow!
later |
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| i cant stand this |
[Mar. 25th, 2006|10:09 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 36 Crazy Fists- Bury Me Where I Fall | ] |
...and so here i am. sitting at home, infront of my computer at 10:09pm on a saturday night, listening to mindless self indulgence and feeling depressed. ive been feeling depressed for the past couple of days. yes, its the same reason as it always is.
dammit....i feel so...alone. yes....people have told me...i dont need a guy to be happy, i shouldnt let this upset me, etc etc. but they dont know me...like ME me...inside. no one does, hence the reason why people have a hard time understanding me. anyways.....i know i dont need guy to be happy....but that doesnt make me feel any less...lonely. im happy now. well nto NOW now, but like generally. im happier then ive ever been....yet, it feels like something is missing. i feel alone. and that scares the HELL out of me. i have a fear of being alone forever. and the fact that guys (the good ones anyways) tend to look in the other direction. they dont see me. and yeah, everyone goes out with creepy or insane people...but thats all ive had...aside from dahl but i didnt really like him...not for the entire time we were going out. i never felt appreciated, or like he wanted to spend time with me.
i just...want to feel....appreciated, and i want a guy to want to spend time with me...and like, or even love me for me...ive been told there are guys like that out there. but i dont believe it....how can i....ive never come across any....atleast that was single anyways.
plus, everyone has someone...aside from binder, but hes overly occupied with his downtown friends on the weekend so hes never around to hang out....and i hate sitting at home by myself...but the people i actually WANT to hang out with are with their boyfriends, and i understand that...i just wish i had someone to hang out with. jacqui and harrisons date night is saturday nights. i envy her for that. steve and chrissy cook eachother dinner. i envy that. ive never had that, no, not even with dahl. i want that, and at this point in my life it looks like thats not gonna happen any time soon, if ever. like i think there migth be a possibility, but then i never wanna get my hopes up, because it never works out in the end. i wish it would though.
and now that i think about everything that ive just written, i feel like an idiot. im always complaining about shit like this. im surprised my friends put up with it...but no matter what they say, i cant help feeling like this. i try to talk about it to them as little as possible, so that i dont become (or get even more) annoying. \whatever...im too frusterated with myself and stupid sadness to care at the moment. i need to go for a walk SO badly...but its raining. maybe i'll watch the rest of the bleeding through dvd. not that you care.
later |
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| sundayyyyyyyy |
[Mar. 12th, 2006|06:19 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Mindless Self Indulgence- Kill The Rock | ] |
soooo last night i went for an excessively long walk by myself. twas awesome..i love walking at night.....its when i do my best thinking. anyways then yeah i went to bed at like 4am...went to work today from 11-5....it sucked, but coburn came in to visit me! i made him a 5 lb sandwich hahahaah
im despising my stomach and the scale in the upstairs bathroom *kills both* im getting depressed because if it again. bah.
anyways im overly bored...no one is online...and im tired...so iii think im gonna go lay down for a bit...and such..
later |
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| pull me out of the mud |
[Mar. 11th, 2006|10:08 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Mindless Self Indulgence- Kill The Rock | ] |
blah. so its another night at home. it sucks a little because ia ctually felt like going out...ah well..shit happens. caitie was tired and chrissy didnt want to drive. so it looks like another night here haah its all good though..im just excessively bored....and my eyes are burning a bit haha damn
later |
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| dearly demented |
[Mar. 11th, 2006|06:48 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  lazy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Bleeding Through- Dearly Demented | ] |
sooooo today wasnt that productive...i went to bed at 4am, was up by 9:15, at the gym by 10, home by 11:15. iiii then slept till 1, ate some food, and then slept till 3. i, for some unknown reason, decided to then clean my room, and then i came on here. then, because it is SO overly nice out today, i went for a walk with my sister...and now im back here. im going to some party tonight with chrissy caitie and steve. i think its some guy (or maybe it was a girl) that chrissy goes to school with. either way, yay party. i think caitie is picking me up at 10. its 6:51. im borrreedddd. maybe i'll call chrissy and bug her for awhile....even though shes at steves. damn. ah well. i'll think of something
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| so. its been awhile. |
[Mar. 10th, 2006|10:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | As I Lay Dying- 94 Hours | ] |
alot yet nothing has happened since i last updated....i did absolutely no school work over reading week......but then my school went on strike th week after that haha...so yes...i dont have school...its awesome.
last night was chrissys surprise party for steve. it was SO much fun. yaya alcohol. goooood times.
oO and i saw bleeding through last sunday. SOOOO fucking good.
im too lazy to type more
later |
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| i wish you were dead |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|11:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | At All Cost- The Formula | ] |
yay devildriver.
i feel all...i dont know. depressed i guess. again. as usual.
sooooo many things are happenning, yet theres nothing happenning at all. it doesnt make sense to you, im sure, but it makes more thene nough sense for me...and i guess thats all that matters...
the fear of being me being alone forever is back. it makes me excessively scared and excessiely sad...to the point where, at this point in time, im crying. everywhere i turn...thres couples...ALLLLL my friends are in some form of relationship...serious or otherwise....then theres the people i see on the street...at school...work...
and its so hard for me....to find a guy...becuase i dont look for the stereotypical guys that most other girls do. i found one....never met him...talk to him on msn all the time...lives kinda far away....dont think he's interested....makes me a little sad. long distance relationships arent as hard as people make them out to be...ive done it before. i love talking to him though....he understands me...hes exactly like me....haah and i broaden his musical horizons...apparently ive sent him over 65 songs lol. because im cool like that.
why does being alone have to hurt so much? i know i know..it sounds like im complaing and whining....i dotn give a shit...im sad and i dont know what to do about it. ive never actually FULLY liked any of my boyfriends (yes, even dahl...so sorry but in all honesty, its true) but this guy, i do. its different. it feels different (in a good way). i ACTUALLY like everything about him. i just wish he felt the same way :( ....meh...shit happens.
annnnnnd you probably think im stupid. fine. im done. for now
...now if only i could find something to eat haha...stuid lack of food *shakes fist*
later |
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| feels like the light will never reach the end... |
[Feb. 26th, 2006|09:53 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Atreyu- Someones Standing On My Chest | ] |
ugh i hate sundays. but before i get to that, yesterday was...interesting. we went to some grek restaurant for my aunts b-day (the insane one) that was fine...(greek food hates me...who woulda thought) then we went back to her house for cake and such. i went with my uncle marshall (the cool one). haah he said i have to go to his house and get high with him. lmao coul dbe interesting. anyways then i went home and jacqui picked me up and we went to alex's poker...party...thing (from work) haha it was hilarious becuase hes like 35 and we alk in the door the first thing he says is 'the alcohol is in the kitchen, the weed is in the garage' i will never look at the butcher guys and alex the same way again ahahahahah it was awesome. then we left and went to the firkin where people were....king, brant, etc. goood times that i dont really remember. then of course, today i worked. which sucked. i hate people, i wish death upon some of them haha. now i feel sick. stupid food.
and im soooooo boreeeddddd. but yay for reading week!
later |
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| im still looking for these angels in the snow |
[Feb. 24th, 2006|07:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 36 Crazy Fists- The Heart And The Shape | ] |
you know whats excessively good? cheerio rice krispy squares...though i guess they would be cheerio squares...either way....i didnt even make a lot of them...i just kinda....melted the butter/vanilla/cinnamon/marshmallows in a bowl in the microwave then added the cheerios....they didnt exactly stick together....yet it was still excessively sticky. anyways, overly good.
hmm so yeah i just got back from the bank/lawblwas. me and jacqui are cooking our monthly vegan dinner haha. even though...we havent done it since like the summer...and it isnt exactly 100% vegan.....ah well. im nto vegan...im not even vegetarian....but this shit is SO damn good haha (vegan pad thai) of course, it kills us after haha. but hey, atleast jacqui has a fucked up stomach like mine...so im not alone lol.
soooo reading week starts....now i guess haha. its about time....i needed a break to just...live haha. school has been so damn stressful....who knew the last semester would be like this lol. ah well.
what else is going on in my life...umm nothing overly exciting....no guys or anything. sadly. i mean am i asking for too much? all i want is a guy who wants to be with me, actually wants to hang out/see me (and makes even a slight effort to), is trustworthy and caring, and has atleast SOME similar intersts as me? i mean im not excessively picky (well im kinda picky, but only for the things that matter...such as the things i just listed) yet it seems that every guy i attract is, in some way, insane or creepy, or is just in it to get one thing and then leaves. it makes me feel like shit. i just want a guy that is perfect for me, but not necessairly perfect in life (it makes sense i swear) and one who can tolerate (and maybe even be amused) with my excessive randomness and the fact that im...not like e=other girls haha oh and one other 'must'that i need in my future boyfriend, is he has to actually LIKE me (i could name names, but i wont).
*sigh* in all honesty, i don think im being demanding and asking too much....but why cant i find this guy? it seems like i'll be searching forever, and i'll never find him becaue all the guys that DO posess the qualitis i want, are either taken or dont like me back. its sad really. ohh well.
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| sundayyyyyyy |
[Feb. 19th, 2006|05:31 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | It Dies Today- A Romance By The Wings Of Icar | ] |
i hate waking up on sundays, becuase i know that 1: i have to go to work, and 2: i have to go to school the next day. however, work actually wasnt that bad today. i was kept busy grating cheese for about 4 hours....sounds boring, but im easily amused. last night matt came over and we watched saw and saw 2. gooood times. umm yes...and now im here....doing...'homework'.....actually i do have a lot of reading to do....buttttt i'll get to that later. InFlames and Trivium on Tuesday!!!!!!! im excited. *does a dance*
blah i dunno. life is excessively boring, as im sure youve noticed.
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| ugh |
[Feb. 17th, 2006|06:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Bullet For My Valentine- Hit The Floor | ] |
so yesterday i didnt go to school. i had the flu...who woulda thought that a person could throw up for 17 hours. honestly i didnt know that it was possible to throw up some of the stuff i threw up. so yeah, i couldnt even drink water becuase that made me feel sick. today i felt well enough to go to school. i skipped my documentary class to finish my stupid soundscape that was due today...for that class. thank god dan was there to help me hahaha. theennnnn my other class (i dotn even know what its called...or what its about for that matter...) was boring. then i realized that i lost my bus ticket that i had JUST bought ($31.25 GONE) so i had to spend ANOTHER $31.25 on another ticket...only to realise shortly after this that i had JUST missed my bus...and was ready, at that point, to pass out and die due to my stomach and dizzyness. then i come home, and get in shit by my mom, through my sister (my mom was on the phone with my sister, and my sister was telling me what she was saying...to me bu not....it makes sense somehow) bah. fuck it. screw the world. *goes into dark corner to die*
tonight im going to caities with chrissy and i think wendy. i dunno if i wanna go...i feel like shit, and my stomach is starting to hate me again. on the other hand, if i stay here i have to endure...my mother and her constant bitching and complaining to me about me. soooo i think im better of going out no matter how shitty i feel.
yeah i dont remember what else i was gonna say....
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| so much time ive wasted... |
[Feb. 14th, 2006|12:26 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | As I Lay Dying- Confined | ] |
blah. sooooooo ive eaten wayyy too much...not...good stuff in the past 2 days....ive consumed more sugar then i have in a loooong time. and i feel like shit, plus i feel fat. again. damn. oh well, i think im going to the gym tonight (hopefully)
sooo i went to the mix today...answered the phones for some contest to win some book...the first guy i talked to had no idea wat the hell was going on....he had the wrong number.
anyways then yeah some psychic came in. thennnn i attempted to make an id with nick and jim....well..they did a lot of the 'work'we all had ideas and stuff....byt he end of the show it looked like we got nothing done, but i prefer to call it creative chaos. yeahhh we didnt get much done haha. someone ordered 9 boxes of hearshaped pizzas from Boston pizza. they came at like 7:30am...iiii had 5 pieces. but, they were excessively small. there werent any good ones though...only vegetarian, delux, and rustic. wel the rustic one wasnt bad but yeah. hmm so then i took the subway home with nick....then the bus. walked from main st. came home...recorded my soundscape, which is shit. i dotn think i did it right, but i hate thast class anyway so i dont care.
wow im tired but i cant fall asleep. im talking to scott and kyle on msn. thats keeping me amused. theres nothing goood on tv during the day.
im babbling about everything and nothing...
later
ps..that song is awweeeeeesome |
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| concerts and such |
[Feb. 13th, 2006|12:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 36 Crazy Fists- Bloowork | ] |
soooooo i need money SO badly. Im going to 5 concerts between now and april 4. Silverstein this sat with matt (most likely...as long as he gets back to me about that today) Inflames/Trivium on Tuesday with scott (as long as i can get a ticket off a scalper), Bleedign through with Scott on march 5, The Bled and Protest the Hero on March 24 with Scott.....and Korn/Mudvayne with scott on april 4. so i owe scott $78, and i gotta get me and matts tickets...so theres another $41, plus the $35 for inflames....and i want more hoodies....so yeah im fucked. well sort of....atleast for silverstein and inflames i am anyway. damn.
so yeah last night was probably the worst night ever. i had a mental breakdown like none other, ended up doing things i wish i didnt do, and yeah.
so now im at school and excessively bored. save me. |
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| friiiiday |
[Feb. 10th, 2006|08:52 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  pessimistic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 36 Crazy Fists- Slit Wrist Theory | ] |
finally its the weekend!
my god today was helllllll. i wasnt feeling too well at school..but i started feeling better towards the end. my documentary class was, as per usual, boring as hell. and my other class....running a radio station (i dunno what its really called) ALSO boring as hell. i left that class early. i figured i was feeling fine, so i went to the gym. baaaaad idea. i started feeling weird...but kept on exercising....but halfway through the 12 weight machines i had to stop....so i figured id spend the next 60 minutes walking/running on the treadmill....yeah i lasted like 20 minutes....i almost passed out...i started getting excessively dizzy, faint, my stomach was killing me and i had a sharp pain in my hip...soooo i got off of that and went to the change room to....change lol. this was at 4:30...my mom was gonna pick me up at 5:30 straight from work (she doesnt have a phone at work) so i was stuck there for another hour. longest. hour. of. my life. i thought i was gonna die. i was in so much effing pain. i was gonna work out before i met scott at the eaton center...but i dont think i'll be able to i dont wanna get..like i did today....sooo i'll just sign up for my personal trainer then go meet scott (*is excited*)
so yeah tonight im not going out...due to todays..events. so im just *gasp* doing homework. sort of. well its better then doing nothing. im so fucking bored though...im done with homework for the night...its not even 9pm....im gonna go to bed early tonight...but not THIS early. hmm im babbling about absolutely nothing...
later
ps...this song owns your unborn babies ;) |
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| mmm corn |
[Feb. 7th, 2006|07:13 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Avenged Sevenfold- An Epic Of Time Wasted | ] |
sooo today i went to the gym for an hour and a half. then i had to walk home...so there was another 40 minutes there....i was exhausted haha how sad is that. ah well. yeah dinner owned...i had a can of corn. twas awesome...i think i ate too much though....then i fell asleep. and now i have homework to do....which i dont look forward to doing, so im wondering how much ill ACTUALLY get done.
hmmm so yesssss i dont remember what else i had to say....dammit i hate it when that happens.....
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| ugh |
[Feb. 5th, 2006|09:08 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sick | ] |
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| | Slipknot- Liberate | ] |
yesterday i went to the gym with caitie....twas a good work out...but i hurt a lot today lol. last night i went to picadully circus with caitie and chrissy. it was good. i worked today....so that obviously sucked. though i did buy some blue potatoes which i had with dinner, so that was good.
..yes my life is boring...
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[Feb. 4th, 2006|12:21 am] |
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soooo school was boring....i had 2 classes....my documentary class....alwasy boring, and then i had..i dont know what its called....but its how to make a radio station successful.....i tuned out...i started colouring in my Dose newspaper with my sharpie. i then walked from unionville go station to Lawblaws....it was far...it took like an hour and a bit....BUT, i successfully joined Goodlife (the one in lawblaws...hence me walking there) i figured, its time i got in shape and such. plus they have that thing where you sign up for a dollar...of course you also have to pay first and last months payments, so in the end i payed $59.80, and i pay $27.50 every 2 weeks, but thats not too bad...i can handle that. now i just gotta get a personal trainer....for an extra....$240....which i haev to come up with by next friday. well i dotn HAVE to, but i want one..i think it'll help me...seeing as how i know absolutely nothing about exercise...which is sad considering the fact that i turn 20 this year and i cant even turn on a treadmill. *sigh* oh well.
hmm so yeah i need to go to a concert. im trying to get chrissy to come to Trivium with me...i even said id buy her ticket (thats how bad i wanna go) but i dunno if my persuading is working or not....hmm.
anyways so yeah last nigth i went to the mall with chrissy, i got the Bleeding Through CD (so good) and chrissy got season 4 and 5 of Viva la Bam, so we watched that at her house.
tonight i went to caities, drank copious amounts of wine, watched transporter 2 and played some game called Things...which is actually an awesome game, especially under the influence of alcohol. goooood times. so yeah im going to the gym with her tomorrow morning. should be good. then i think me her chrissy wendy and..i dunno who else are going downtown....i dunno what we;ll be doing, but i know alcohol will be involved so its bound to be an adventure and a half. hmm and yes. thats about it..
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